I’ve recently developed a deep hatred for all people. Everyone is so dishonest, and fake. Even when I think I’ve found someone who I can trust, they go out of their way to prove to me that I am entirely too optimistic.
I hate my job, because I hate people, and there are people there.
I’m still not motivated to do anything academically. I feel lost, and the fact that most the people I graduated with are getting their degrees this semester is so depressing I can’t even think about it. All I wanted was a degree, and I’m smart; I got accepted to every college in this state, but somewhere along the way that got very lost. Now I’m struggling to get a worthless degree from a worthless school.
I’ve never felt farther away from my family. For the first time I feel like I can’t trust them, honestly it’s more a feeling of betrayal.
I want everything to be different, and I’m working towards that. Despite the fact that I feel the way I feel, I’m trying to brush it off, and be positive. I so desperately want my old mentality back where the world was a better place and there was some good in everyone. I was really forgiving and always went out of my way to be kind. I’ll get there…I think.
